All day I felt like there was a darkness looming over me. I felt this overwhelming sadness and hopelessness. All this pain and fear I didn’t know I was carrying was weighing deep in my heart. I didn’t want to move or do anything. I just wanted to sit on my couch and feel sorry for myself.
Eventually there was a small breakthrough and I forced myself to get off the couch and to go do laundry. I needed to move and I needed to clean. I learned that trick from an old friend. When you feel yourself covered in etheric grime, the best thing to do is to brush the dirt off your shoulder and clean!
Laundry, change the bedding, do the dishes, sweep the floor, clean the bathroom. I had to change up the energy in my apartment and get my own energy flowing. I’m telling you, it really helps a lot. I start to notice the difference right away.
So, I thought about it while I was doing laundry. Tomorrow is the New Moon and it’s 11/11. It really makes sense that I’ve been feeling this way today. It’s my spirit letting me know that right now is time to let go of things that are not serving me. It’s time for me to do some writing. Writing down the bones. Getting those skeletons out of mental closet. I’m going to write a long letter to myself and burn it tonight. I’m also going to take a bath and cleanse myself. I’ll feel fresh when I enter my clean room and clean bed. I’ll also do a big smudge of my apartment tonight.
I thought I would share in case any of you were feeling the same way.
I don’t see why I need to be hanging on to some of these thoughts and feelings. I want to feel like I’m forward and not holding myself back.
I pulled this card for tonight:
I wish you all lots of love and healing on this wonderful New Moon.